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Friday, April 16th, 2010 10:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jenepherreSo, ummm... Usually I love it when the parents take off for a while and I have the house to myself, but I'm kind of not in a good place depression-wise right now, and I think being here alone might be bad rather than good at the moment. :|
For those that don't already know, here's what's going on with me, health-wise. My prescription insurance changed at the beginning of the year, and the new insurance company decided there was no documented proof that the dose of antidepressant that I've been taking for the past 2+ years is any better than half that dose and they're only willing to pay for the lower dose. We fought with them, and for the time being, we lost. So we had to cut my dose in half to what they thought I should be taking. My doc's feeling was that either I'll do okay on this dose and the insurance won't be an issue or I won't do okay and then we'll have the proof we need to fight the insurance company again. The latter is what happened.
Even though I've only been on the lower dose for a few weeks, the difference in how I'm doing is so significantly worse that when I saw my doc last Friday, he basically said "this is ridiculous," gave me enough samples of my antidepressant to cover me at the higher dose for a couple of weeks, and he's writing a letter to my insurance company giving them hell and making it clear to them that I do need the higher dose. I have an awesome psychiatrist.
Still, the cut in dose lasted long enough that I'm definitely down in my Pit of Despair and it's going to take some time to pull myself back out. It doesn't help that I'm in a distinctly apathetic type of depression right now. Far less dangerous than a suicidal type depression, obviously, but for me, on slightly less insidious. I'd point out that I can't really bring myself to care, but that would be redundant, wouldn't it?
So Mom & Dad are at my brother's place in Virginia until the 29th. I was originally going with them and was going to stay until May 20th, but 5 weeks away from home - not a good idea right now. But I really wanted to spend my birthday at my brother's, so I'm going from May 6th through May 20th (my birthday is on the 18th). It makes it easier on both ends for me to go at a different time than my parents too. So, house to myself for the next 2 weeks.
I should go to at least one of the Young Veins shows - San Francisco on Sunday, Sacramento (Orangevale) on Monday, LA on Wednesday - since I'm here. I think I'll be doing good if I make it to the Sacramento one. Part of me would love to come down to LA for the show at the Troubadour on Wednesday, but I haven't made any plans re: staying the night or anything, and I'm poor, so I just don't know. We'll see.
I'm having a hard time keeping up with all the goings on in the world of Adam Lambert and his bandmates lately. I try to follow things on Twitter and on![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
teamlambliff, but I've been falling behind lately. Still, summer tour! I should definitely be feeling better by then.
Mostly, I've just been sleeping, or watching The Owl Box. 'Cause fuzzy little baby owl butts pretty much always make me smile. Seriously, they are adorable.
Note: this post has taken me more than 24 hours to write. If that helps give you an idea of where my concentration level is at. Also, screw proper sentence structure. :-P
For those that don't already know, here's what's going on with me, health-wise. My prescription insurance changed at the beginning of the year, and the new insurance company decided there was no documented proof that the dose of antidepressant that I've been taking for the past 2+ years is any better than half that dose and they're only willing to pay for the lower dose. We fought with them, and for the time being, we lost. So we had to cut my dose in half to what they thought I should be taking. My doc's feeling was that either I'll do okay on this dose and the insurance won't be an issue or I won't do okay and then we'll have the proof we need to fight the insurance company again. The latter is what happened.
Even though I've only been on the lower dose for a few weeks, the difference in how I'm doing is so significantly worse that when I saw my doc last Friday, he basically said "this is ridiculous," gave me enough samples of my antidepressant to cover me at the higher dose for a couple of weeks, and he's writing a letter to my insurance company giving them hell and making it clear to them that I do need the higher dose. I have an awesome psychiatrist.
Still, the cut in dose lasted long enough that I'm definitely down in my Pit of Despair and it's going to take some time to pull myself back out. It doesn't help that I'm in a distinctly apathetic type of depression right now. Far less dangerous than a suicidal type depression, obviously, but for me, on slightly less insidious. I'd point out that I can't really bring myself to care, but that would be redundant, wouldn't it?
So Mom & Dad are at my brother's place in Virginia until the 29th. I was originally going with them and was going to stay until May 20th, but 5 weeks away from home - not a good idea right now. But I really wanted to spend my birthday at my brother's, so I'm going from May 6th through May 20th (my birthday is on the 18th). It makes it easier on both ends for me to go at a different time than my parents too. So, house to myself for the next 2 weeks.
I should go to at least one of the Young Veins shows - San Francisco on Sunday, Sacramento (Orangevale) on Monday, LA on Wednesday - since I'm here. I think I'll be doing good if I make it to the Sacramento one. Part of me would love to come down to LA for the show at the Troubadour on Wednesday, but I haven't made any plans re: staying the night or anything, and I'm poor, so I just don't know. We'll see.
I'm having a hard time keeping up with all the goings on in the world of Adam Lambert and his bandmates lately. I try to follow things on Twitter and on
teamlambliff, but I've been falling behind lately. Still, summer tour! I should definitely be feeling better by then.Mostly, I've just been sleeping, or watching The Owl Box. 'Cause fuzzy little baby owl butts pretty much always make me smile. Seriously, they are adorable.
Note: this post has taken me more than 24 hours to write. If that helps give you an idea of where my concentration level is at. Also, screw proper sentence structure. :-P
